Previous Lives

I feel like I have lived so many previous lives. Not in the religious sense of being reincarnated over and over, trying to get things right. But in the sense of having done so many different things throughout my days. Autumn always puts me in a reflective mood. So does Doctor Who. I was smarter…

Patterns of Patterns

Why do I keep making bad decisions? It’s a question I’ve been asking for a while now. Although I do my best to heal the hurts/learn the lessons/move forward, I always seem to circle back to this single query. Where’s the flaw in my decision-making process of discernment? I must be blind because I keep…

Final Answer Regis!

Honestly. It’s been an #unhinged week. Like being on a rollercoaster without the safety bar. Hold on tight cuz this train is leavin’ the station. I had no control over any of the events that happened to flip my classes sideways. But that’s okay because Control is an illusion. I don’t want to live my life…

#Irony

I know it shouldn’t hurt… but it does. I know it doesn’t make a difference… but it does. All the visible signs of my work last year are gone… except for some painted rectangles. It almost feels like I didn’t exist. But I know there was a ton of good work that changed young lives……

A Year of Mastery

Everyone Changes I have been all-consumed. By change. By change in the people around me. By change that changes the people around me. I feel like a movie stuntwoman who grabs onto the airplane at take-off and never quite manages to get anywhere safe. I’m just hanging on for dear life… trying to enjoy the…

The Unknowable Path

Seth Godin’s blog popped into my email early this morning. And then a little bit later, a friend sent the same link. Seems the universe is intent on getting my undivided attention on this one. The unknowable path … might also be the right one. The fact that your path is unknowable may be precisely why…

#BiggerPlan

Middle of the night and here I sit. Still time to get one more sleep in before church but I doubt I will. I just don’t have it in me to fall into the black. It feels like a place I will die a little more. My heart already emptying out. It must not be…